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[[It's all make-believe!]]
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[May. 11th, 2008|04:56 pm] |
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Bye Bye Birdie is over :(
It shaped up pretty well. Nothing like Hagerty but pretty decent. And lo and behold, a month before school ends, I finally have friends here! Whatever...
Had the cast party at my house last night. It was crazy!! Like 50 or more people in our house that comfortably holds 20 at the most. But people had fun and my parents were totally cool. And we were covered because the chief of police was in the show so he came for a little while, so no police raids or anything (not that we were drinking anyway but we were LOUD).
What will people remember about the party though? Someone's USED tampon in the middle of the living room. How does one fall out? We haven't been able to figure it out at all. The unsolved mystery of the year. It's all fun and games till someone loses their tampon I guess...
Now time for me to be bad. There's this guy I've known since the first play of the year. He's adorable and possibly the sweetest guy in the world. And it gets complicated because he has a girlfriend who's best friends with my friend from governor's school (she goes to a different high school). But anyway, I was trying to respect him and so I wouldn't be tempted I told him to invite his girlfriend. And he said he would but then the night of the party he didn't and talked to me quite a bit of the night... not all night or anything, but I was ecstatic and then figured I'll probably go to hell for it but whatever.
Man, my writing is so sloppy. My English teacher told me my writing has gotten worse; I should probably start reading some books and get myself back on track now that the play is over. But I'm going to start working again so I guess she'll just have to deal...
Tchüss Freunden |
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[Apr. 27th, 2008|06:38 pm] |
I'm tired.
I Kinda wish I'd never signed up for the musical, only because I come home so frustrated. Our director enforced NO rules whatsoever the last, oh, six weeks of rehearsal (it only took Hagerty 5 weeks to do Bye Bye Birdie) and now the show is next Friday and we're JUST NOW learning the frickin music and she won't take any help. She asked me to choreograph a couple songs, and then when she asked to see them, she watched about two seconds before turning to talk to someone. She's 22, she needs to grow up and take some fricken control.
Done now. |
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[Apr. 21st, 2008|10:11 pm] |
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People, I have done it.
I now own SIX--count them!--SIX Les Mis soundtracks.
1. Complete Recording
2. Original London Cast
3. Original Broadway Cast
4. 10th Anniversary Cast
5. Original Concept Album (French)
6. The newest addition... the 1992 Paris Cast
Time to move on to the German and Spanish versions!
I really need to make some friends that are allowed to do things with me outside of school. Apperently m friends parents don't think I'm a good influence or something because none of my friends can come to my house when my parents aren't home.
Whhhhhhhhhhatever. I have a new CD to play over and over. So screw them. |
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[Mar. 4th, 2008|11:40 pm] |
We have a tornado watch until 3am. Maybe I'll bet lucky and Poquoson will flood enough (my school's in a kind of ditch) and I'll be off tomorrow, 'cos I sure ain't sleeping anytime soon tonight.
I want to run out in the rain, but I'd probably wake my parents up, and my neighborhood (hell, entire town) is scary at night due to the dozen or so graveyards.
Finished German; working on pre-calc. Probably won't get to chemistry or much of bio tonight, but oh well.
Now I'm all freaked out. The wind makes the house old and creaky. |
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[Mar. 4th, 2008|10:19 pm] |
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I have no ambition. No ambition to do anything. I don't want to work on my load of homework, I don't want to clean, I don't want to write or dance or sing. I just want to sleep.
Well, sleep and eat. But purging requires way too much energy, and I'm sick of doing it. I think I'm gaining weight. I have to stop, or I won't fit in my prom dress, which is a small.. God, I was so happy when it fit. I'll be suicidal if I'm too fat for it now.
I don't know what to do with myself. I know what I want for my life, I think, but getting there is the problem. I don't know how I'm going to get through all this. Everyone says it's just three months, but no one seems to understand the physical sickness I throw myself into at the very thought of school or interacting. I avoid people, even the closest things I have to friends, at all costs until it's necessary to be with them. They're not bad people, I just prefer being alone, and yet I hate it sometimes.
The weird thing is that this isn't really new. I had the same feelings in Florida sometimes, when I was crabby or tired, and I hated talking on the phone even then. But there, I'd come out of my bubble and enjoy being with people. Now, with the exception of Annie and sometimes Lindsey, I dread meetings with almost anyone. I hate seeing the looks they give me--teachers and adults with that pitying, confused glance. As cliche as it is, they don't understand. They can't get why a girl with nearly perfect grades and a decent personality and range of interests hates herself so much. I'm tired of the whispers and side glances from peers and immediately assuming that it's about me, about my hair, my face, my whatever. It's exhausting, and probably why I prefer my solitude.
I am s |
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[Mar. 2nd, 2008|04:25 pm] |
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i'm so frickin anxious I could SCREAM |
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[Mar. 1st, 2008|03:01 pm] |
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| [ | Hearing |
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So, I got out this past Wednesday. This time I REALLY didn't want to come home. I had friends there, good friends. People keep telling me I only knew people three weeks, but you have to remember that I spent a goof 12 hours a day with them. So that's actually quite a bit of time.
So, now I'm on a super-strict meal plan (gr. not allowed to lose weight OR exercise outside of dance). I dread going back to school.
Took the SAT today. The five hours went by quicker than I thought. I think I did alright, but not great. I haven't really slept soundly since they told me I was going home in the hospital.
We're almost definitely moving to Florida so at this point, my plan is:
-Manage through the last three months of hell
-Once I'm caught up with my shitload (and I mean SHITload) of schoolwork, look for a waitressing job so I can make the same amount of money I was making before but not work as many hours
-Go to FL and go to summer school for Personal Fitness
-During summer school, get a night job waitressing
After summer school, get a full-time cushy day job in something like retail (preferably in a greeting card store. EASIEST JOB EVER)
Make lots of money for:
-Clothes, makeup
-Sims 2 (the one I have doesn't work on Mac!! grrr)
-Europe trip with Annie---we've planned it for the summer after high school. It will look something like this: Morocco - Spain - France - Italy - Germany - Czech Republic - Poland - Greece - Turkey
It will cost around $10,000. Hence the double job.
-Start back at HAGERTY!!!!!! YESSSSSS!!!
Classes:
AP Calc BC
AP English Lit
AP American History
Honors Physics
Comp Theater III (Honors)
Health/Aerobics
I'll miss German, but I'll never keep up with my class there since German II here is pretty much German I. These classes will give me a total of:
Math Credits: 5; 3 honors, 1 AP
Science: 6; 2 honors, 1 AP, 3 college-level
English: 4; 2 honors, 2 AP
Social Studies: 4; 4 AP
Arts: 4; 1 honors
Language: 2
Gym: 1.5
Not bad, but I should've taken honors Geometry and AP Biology freshman year. But whatever. My GPA is still pretty good.
Now for colleges I'm between FSU (because it'll be free) and something in Chicago (for the location). Princeton's price tag is just too big.
wow I'm tired |
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[Feb. 1st, 2008|08:48 pm] |
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So, tomorrow I leave for Chicago. Sunday I go into Alexian Brothers Hospital... again. On the exact same date as three years ago--I just can't get over that! Except this time, I'll gain weight and not come out still thin. Which sucks. I really didn't want to go there, because you're not allowed to exercise AT ALL and that drives me crazy. But it's the only place our insurance will pay for.
Meanwhile, my parents continue to sit and glare and in so many words express how pissed off they are they I GOT SICK. whatever, I don't even feel like going into that. well I do but I'm too lazy to type it. |
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[Jan. 31st, 2008|08:53 pm] |
1. YOUR FULL NAME:
Rebecca Erin Curran
2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 4 letters of full name & add izzle)
Rebizzle
I took the e out because it looked more European than gangster
3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color and favorite animal)
Red Cat
4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (your middle name and street you live on)
Erin Oakmoore
5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2
letters of your first name)
Curre
6. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)
Purple Dr. Pepper
Now that just doesn't work at all
7. YOUR ARAB SHEIK NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of
your
last name, 1st letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your mom's
middle
name, 3rd letter of your dad's middle name, 1st letter of a sibling)
Erak
Actually, my dad has no middle name, but it was almost Aquinas so I went with that. Creepy how it looks like it'd be said like Iraq
8. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: ( Middle Name, Sibiling's first name,
name
you wish was yours)
Erin Kelly Antonia
That sounds awful.
Ok. There was my absolutely pointless fun. |
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[Jan. 25th, 2008|10:29 pm] |
New Survey
Tired of those same old 55 questions about me surveys?
Well here are 55 I guarantee you've never answered.
1. Are you taller than your best friend?
Nope, Annie surpassed me in 8th grade
2. Do you have a favorite type of pen?
Yeah, the inky ones
3. Look at your planner for March 7th, what are you doing?
um, nothing
4. What color are your toenails usually?
Nothing... no point in painting them, they just get nasty from pointe
5. What was the last thing you highlighted?
My biology notes
6. What color are the curtains in your bedroom?
blue and white
7. What color are the seats in your vehicle?
grey
8. Have you ever had a black and white cat?
Yes
9. What is the last thing you put a stamp on?
A payment for a sweater
10. Do you know anyone who lives in Wyoming?
No
11. Why did you withdraw cash from the ATM the last time?
To go shopping while in NYC
12. Who is the last baby that you held?
Baby Zane
13. Can you spell well?
Sometimes
14. Do you like Cinnamon toothpaste?
I prefer mint but it's ok
15. What kind of car were you driving 2 years ago?
I wasn't
16. Pick one: Miami Hurricanes or Florida Gators:
Neither
17. Last time you went to Six Flags?
End of 8th grade
18. Do you have any wallpaper in your house?
No, it's painted though
19. Closest thing to you that is yellow?
change purse
20. Last person you gave a business card?
A potential babysitting customer
21. Who is the last person you wrote a check to?
No checks... I wrote a money order for that sweater...
22. Closest framed picture to you?
My great-grandfather's graduating class at a dairy school
23. Last time you had someone cook for you?
The Italian restaurant in NYC
25. How many emails do you get in your inbox daily (excluding spam)?
Between one and five
26. Last time you received flowers?
For Brighton Beach Memoirs
28. Do you play air guitar?
No, I'm more of a dancer
29. Has anyone ever proposed to you?
no
30. Do you take anything in your coffee?
I like to put hot chocolate in it but not always
31. Do you own any Willow Tree figurines?
nope.
32. What is/was your high school's mascot?
Huskies and bulls
33. Last person you spoke to from high school?
a girl form my German class
34. Last time you used hand sanitizer?
in NYC... I just wash my hands
35. Would you like to learn to play the drums?
sure.
36. What color are the blinds in your living room?
We don't have blinds, we have green curtains
38. Last thing you read in the newspaper?
I don't remember
39. What was the last pageant you attended?
I've never been to one (thank goodness)
40. What is the last place you bought pizza from?
Donatos
41. Have you ever worn a crown?
For a dance costume
42. What is the last thing you stapled?
Biology lab report
43. Did you ever drink clear Pepsi?
No
44. Are you ticklish?
yes. so don't touch me.
45. Last time you saw fireworks?
Last fourth of July maybe...
46. Last time you had a Krispy Kreme doughnut?
Probably Districts last January
47. Last person to IM you, and you actually responded?
Devan
48. Last time you parked under a carport?
never
49. Do you have a black dog?
no
51. Are you an aunt or uncle?
no
52. Who has the prettiest eyes that you know of?
Annie
53. Last time you saw a semi truck?
Today
54. What is the last song you belted out in the car?
Silent Movie... but I always sing in the car
55. Do you have a little black dress?
yep bought it in NYC |
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[Jan. 5th, 2008|08:13 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
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| [ | Hearing |
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Grr, so much homework. I need to dump my brains out...
So, back to more detail on Mrs. Beth's wedding in Ohio. I got along with Lindsey much better than in the summer. I don't know, something was wrong with me in the summer. I was going through some crap, but that's over now (it's been overridden by newer, more important crap!). I couldn't help but notice that Mrs. Beth looked incredibly nervous the entire ceremony. Bryan is really a rare find--loves the girls, converting to Catholicism, will run out and by you anything you want if you mention the word "cramps"... he seems like a genuinely nice guy, too. I'm glad for them. It was a little weird considering Lindsey's dad hasn't even been dead for a year. But goodness, I can't even begin to dissect the psychology behind that affair.
Yes, so a little more ranting about my flight. Just a little. The Atlanta airport is HUGE and they switched my gate and made me go all over and then canceled the stupid thing. Thank God I didn't check luggage, because I ended up flying into a different city than planned.
I don't understand how Melville is supposed to be such a great writer. Billy Budd has an ok enough plot and symbolism, illusions, etc. but the man cannot stay on topic. It's a 95-page book and I think maybe 10 pages are pure plot.
My New York trip is so close... and guess what? I don't really want to go anymore. I don't like the way I've become and I don't want to show that to my friends. They would hate me now, the way I whine and complain. I was invited to a party last night and made up an excuse not to go. I don't like being around people anymore, isn't that screwed up? Anyway, I'm sure I have fun once I'm there. Hopefully when I'm around friends I trust then I'll feel better.
I'm dying to go to a ballet summer intensive--Central Pennsylvania Youth Ballet or Bossov in Maine. I'm leaning towards the second one, because it's cheaper and they do a performance, plus CPYB is notorious for encouraging eating disorders (tell my parents that and I'll kill you). My parents are hesitant to send me because they're convinced spending 5 weeks in a ballet setting will make me starve myself (good think they don't know things I do at home... again, tell and you die). but they don't understand... I want to do this before I sign my life away to the medical field. Can't I do this one thing for myself before I'm stuck in 12 years of school? I'm agreeing to 4 years of college, 4 years of medical, and 4 years or more of a residency in something I don't really horribly want to do, so that I can afford things and they can have a "daughter who's a doctor" and brag to their friends that I want to Princeton or wherever the hell I end up.
/end rant
Happy thoughts now, happy thoughts... I've been better about going to the gym. I'm going to Hagerty or Woodlands senior year. Yay now we're happy. As much as I'd love Hagerty, it would be AMAZING to spend senior year with Annie and Lindsey. I doubt even two of us will end up at the same college, so senior year would be nice...
AHHHHH I have so much to do...
Homework, because I feel like pitying myself:
Biology: Pre-lab for Immunology lab on Monday; notes on Chapters 22-23; allele frequency problems
Chemistry: Problem Sets 8/9 (DONE finally), molecular geometry lab, quiz Wednesday and test Friday
Research: Research article review due Monday; lab notebook (that thing I haven't touched in months that I'm supposed to be doing bi-weekly) due Friday
Pre-Calc: Homework for sections 5.1 and 5.2 (trig functions... bleh)
English: Observation paper (quarter assignment) due Tuesday; Chapters 2-6 of Billy Budd
Government: Current event quiz Tuesday
German II: Travel vocabulary notecards
PITY ME. Haha. I did this to myself. I went, "Gee oh golly, I bet that BioChem Analysis will be FUN! And AP English and Government? SURE! Oh, what the hell, give me pre-calc and research too..." |
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[Dec. 31st, 2007|07:13 pm] |
Thank God, I will not be at Poquoson High for my senior year! I will either be at Woodlands or Hagerty. YAY.
Stupid flight got canceled today. Grr.
That's really all I feel like writing... |
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| RIP Benazir Bhutto |
[Dec. 27th, 2007|08:44 am] |
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I hate extremists. Here was a woman who rose against the odds in her country to be something great, and they shot her. These are the people liberals want us to stop fighting? Amazing how FEMINISTS want us to stop. This is what they think of you.
Grr.
This world is fucked up. |
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[Dec. 20th, 2007|10:36 pm] |
What was the last thing u ate? Banana
Have you ever faked sick? ...yes.
Have you ever cried during a movie? yes, but I usually don't. The only one that gets me every time I watch it is Hotel Rwanda.
How do you see yourself 5 years from now? Five years... 21. Probably drunk... no, probably studying for the MCATS.
How do your spell your last name? CURRAN
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? my sister
who is ur favorite actress younger than 20? Emma Watson probably
Do you pray? yes
Do you get easily embarrassed? yes
What is your favorite store? Barnes&Noble/Borders, Anthropologie
What animals are you scared of? Anything bigger than me with teeth
what kind of shampoo brand do you use? Sunsilk
What is the last thing you do before going to bed at night? think
If you could use 3 words to describe yourself, what would they be? obsessive... that's the only one
What is the first chocolate thing that comes to mind? fudge
Are you a good speller? Sometimes
What country would you like to visit? Germany, Italy, and Greece (among MANY others)
How do you want to die? peacefully
how do thunderstorms make you feel? I don't care for severe ones, but light ones are nice
Do you shower daily? yeah I just don't wash my hair everyday, or else it's like straw
Can you unwrap a starburst with your tongue? no
Do you think you can sing? Sometimes
Can you walk in high heels? Yes, for 3 miles :-)
Do you sleep with the light on? Not usually, although in class it never bothers me enough to keep me from dozing off a few times
Rate your spicy-food tolerance 1-10. Eh... 5 to 7. Somewhere in there.
Can you taste the difference between Pepsi and Coke? I think so... Pepsi tastes a little sweeter.
Would you choose to live forever if you could? No
Have you ever given money to a bum? yes
Have you ever had a secret admirer? Yeah, but they're usually creepy people. Why do creepy people like me?
is your room messy? uh, yeah
what is your mom's name? Jean
Where is the weirdest place u have a mole? nowhere
Have you ever made-out in a movie theater? Nope
What was the last thing you were grounded for? I've never been grounded (knock on wood) but I don't go anywhere ANYWAY
Which shoe do you put on first? right usually
What was your childhood nickname? Becca, Becca the recca, Little Gumba
how often do you clean out your ears? A few times a week. I hate when my ears are dirty.
DO you hate more than 3 people? I loathe more than three people--anyone who works to attack innocent people like al Queda does. But hate, I don't know.
How many houses have you lived in? seven... wow
Have you ever tripped someone? not on purpose
What is the last movie you've watched? Monster in Law
Least favorite school subject? usually chemistry
Name one thing that is always on your mind: school, the future, my weight... I never have only one thing on my mind
What time were you born? around noon
Have you ever made a prank phone call? No, actaully
How many watches do you own? One
What color is your cell phone? Red
Who is the last person you hugged? Renee
How many cavities have you had in your lifetime? 2 or 3
How many lamps are in your bedroom? None
Do you use chapstick? yes
Ever had braces? no
American Eagle or Abercrombie? both are too expensive, but AE
Are you too forgiving? When someone cries, yes
What did you do 3 nights ago? Monday night... studied, homework, and... oh yeah I went somewhere but I don't remember where
Ever called somebody Boo? no
Starbucks or Java Joes? I've never had Java Joes... Caribou Coffee is the best, IMO.
What were you doing May of 1994? Being a blissfully ignorant 3-year-old
McDonald's or Wendy's? Wendy's, but I like McDs too
Do you like yourself? Not usually
Have you ever eaten glue? no
do you chat on AIM often? no
What's your favorite Pringles flavor? I haven't had them in forever... I think my favorite was cheese though
Full House or Brady Bunch? Brady Bunch
Do u have a birth mark? no
Do you have any scars? quite a few. I wasn't a very careful child.
Do you enjoy scary movies? Only if they're psychological thrillers. I hate gore.
Have you seen all the Rocky movies? none of them
Where were you when 9/11 happened? In 5th grade science class
Do you believe that opposites attract? sometimes
Are you a heavy sleeper or light sleeper? Usually pretty heavy
Do you have A.D.D? No
What time did you wake up today? 5:30am, which is late actually
How do you feel about carrots? they're yummy.
What is the last thing you've drinked? water
What is the last song you've heard? Something from Miss Saigon
Who is the last person who kissed you? Pathetic as this is, someone from Illinois...
What is the last book you've read? Forever in Blue
Do you have any prayer requests? That my sister has a safe flight
What are you doing today? Well there's only an hour left of today... so basically waste time and sleep
Do you know someone who has a birthday this month? Annie and Kelly and my dad
What is the last website you've been on? dance.net
Do you like Dr. Pepper? Yeah
When is the last time you've been outside? Coming home from ballet
What are you wearing? My leotard and sweats
How are you wearing your hair? up
What's your favorite Christmas song? Religious: O Holy Night, What Child is This; Nonreligious: The Christmas Song (Chestnuts Roasting...) and the Peanuts Christmas Song (Christmas Time is Here). Also, God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen and People Look East (a French carol). I love Christmas songs. |
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[Dec. 20th, 2007|10:05 pm] |
Forgive the language, but HOLY SHIT, Christmas is five days!
I mean, I had most of my shopping done months ago due to my OCD tendency to plan everything. But gosh, 2007... is gone. Weird how the seven or eight hours I spend at school go by SO dang slowly... but the year as a whole just flew by.
Goodness goodness goodness. I'm so glad that I will see Lindsey in a week and my FL friends in less than a month! Even though my friends here are very sweet I can hardly tell them things. The year difference that I never felt with people like Allison seems like a decade here. I mean, we have parties where we eat ice cream and play board games. I haven't been to a true high school party *yet*, but my friends and I would at least do something kinda against the rules, even if it was stupid like renting an R movie (which I can see now anyway) or talking about stuff.
From what I've inferred, I won't be at this school next year. Hopefully, that means my parents will let me move in with Lindsey and attend Woodlands. Lindsey will live in base housing, so they don't pay utilities/water/anything like that. I know it's pathetic to go back twice, but to hell with it. I'm going to be selfish and say that I want to ENJOY my senior year. It's my last year to pursue theater and ballet and have fun before I sign my life away to medicine. Which, for the love of God, I don't even want to really do! I mean I do and I don't. I want to help people, and I want to have money because I want a large family. I'm not happy unless I achieve either. So there's no way I won't be a doctor or something high-reaching like that. But what I would give to be talented enough to pursue what I love--ballet and theater. Sometimes I wish I could let myself be average in school and focus on something else, but that will never happen. It's just not my nature. I make frickin timelines for a "vegging out" night and make Christmas lists in June.
On a different note...
Yay for no school tomorrow! There's only periods 1-4 at Poquoson (I have 5-7 there) and my gov school teachers said not to come. So I am STAYING HOME! SLEEPING IN! SLEEPING! I do have to clean (Kelly comes Sunday) and I'll probably go to the gym or something so I don't feel completely lazy, but for the most part I will be a sloth all day.
Oh, and I got a role in a community theater production of "The Last of the Red Hot Lovers." I will play Bobbi, who is a freakin pshyco and gets the main character high at the end of the scene (totally me, haha, not really).
Last random thoughts:
Boo to the stupid writer's strike (I miss House!!)
Thank God Gore didn't get man of the year
I love my pointe shoes
I don't have to get up tomorrow!
It's cold.
I wish I hadn't chopped my hair off.
Merry Christmas! |
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[Nov. 18th, 2007|07:03 pm] |
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...so.
Basically it's been a roller coaster. Just this morning I sat and cried in the car while my parents were in church, but now I'm perfectly fine. Why do I have to be so messed up??
Brighton Beach Memoirs went ok. Set was amazing, Gavin (Eugene) was amazing. Lots of missed lines, but unless you had a script it wasn't too obvious. That being said, if you had a script, you would have cried. But everyone was good at their parts.
Up until today anything I would've written here would've been full of whining. School is hard, but I could deal with it if I had some real friends. There's a really nice group of sophomores I sit with at lunch but we're not into the same things. Today I went out with some seniors who were in the play, and actually was really happy. I get along with them well. The only problem is that one of them, Gavin, looks so much like this guy I was in love with forever... well, three years, but for me that's a good sixth of my life. It's just a little weird. But I'm so glad to finally feel like there's some people to connect with!
So, other than that... I love ballet, and I wish I never had to stop in Chicago so I could pursue it further. But now I'm locked into medical school. It's weird, because it's not that I don't want to be a doctor, but I hate that I basically have more school ahead of me than behind me. I hate school. I like learning, I love learning, but I hate school. I hate coming home everyday, doing homework, sleeping for a few hours, and going back. I went to a math contest yesterday *cough NERD *cough* and there was a kid there--he's senior now--who took AP Calc freshman year and got a fucking 5 on the AP exam (the highest grade). How the hell do I compete with that? I hate that I'm so mediocre. I'm good at things--but never amazing. It's so boring.
whatever. done ranting now. |
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[Sep. 10th, 2007|07:29 pm] |
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I've been pretty down and VERY busy lately, but here's some AMAZING news for me!! My dance teacher just called and said she thought I was ready to go up en pointe. That's something I've ALWAYS wanted to do, and I didn't think I'd ever be good enough. It's nice to know someone thinks I have potential in dance. I'm not looking to be a professional, but still.
So on that one note, I'm VERY VERY happy. VERY :-) |
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[Aug. 13th, 2007|07:02 pm] |
I've had, oh, five or six major mood swings today. It's not fun, let me tell you. Since it was my day off we went to visit the Governor's School. They're ready to let me in, no testing or anything, if I can get my other required courses in. The only way to do that would be to take AP US History online this year and then gym next summer. Which is possible. I just don't want to have to quit my job, because I really like this having money thing. It's quite nice. |
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It was exactly the way I thought it would be, pretty much. I worked drive-thru and it wasn't that bad. You get some real assholes who don't believe you when you say that yes, that IS the medium drink, we just changed the color of the cup and the like, but overall people were pretty good and the biggest mistake I made was giving someone a sweet tea instead of unsweet. So I'm pretty happy. |
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[Jul. 26th, 2007|08:25 pm] |
So I've done what I always do when I'm stressed and need to control something--I start looking at colleges, summer internships, and the like.
And now, I've narrowed down my colleges (yet again).
We have...
Northwestern, because of it's location.
Johns Hopkins, because a degree from there in the medical field is like a law degree from Harvard.
Cornell, because it's in New York, and an Ivy League, ad therefore looks REALLY good on a resume.
That's assuming I can get in. There;s this prestigious "governor's school" here for advanced students, but you have to test into it in like 8th grade, and if I'm applying with people from my school who did the program I haven't got a chance, unless I can find REALLY good summer program that isn't 6000 dollars. Oh yeah, and maintain perfect grades and convince them to let me take AP Stats this year. Stupid move.
New subject... saw Hairspray. Really loved it, actually, except the main character gets no recognition and everyone's making a huge deal out of Travolta. Grease will just never be the same.
Now I'm watching The Jacket on TV. Keira Knightley with an American accent... it's weird.
I guess that's all. |
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